Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Stop all the clocks

Stop all the clocks by W.H. Auden

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Monday, after a 6 month battle with pancreatic cancer, i buried my father.  He passed away on Thursday, August 25th, at 4:20pm with my family and i by his side.  To say we are devastated and distraught is not nearly saying enough.  I don't know how we will live without him. 


24 comments:

Kirsti @ Living in Lovely LaLaLand said...

I'm so very sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Maury said...

I know I can't say anything to help your grief. Know that I am praying for peace, comfort and hope in this time of sorrow for you and your family.

Linda @ A La Carte said...

My sweet friend. I am crying and I mourn with you the loss of your beloved Father. I know it was a hard fight and the loss is enormous. Sending you prayers and hugs!
Linda

Orange it Lovely said...

B- I am so so sorry. There are no words to comfort you right now.. but you will find a way. he would want it that way. ((hugs)) Your
family is in my prayers.
Taña

Comeca Jones said...

I will be praying for you to have peace in your going through.

Suesan said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. We just lost my mother-in-law a few days after your dad's passing. It's hard to lose a loved one. You're in my thoughts and prayers during this time.

Sourkraut said...

I am so sorry for you and your family. That beautiful poem takes on a whole new meaning when you're feeling that loss. *big hug*

Emily said...

HUGS! I lost my mom 5 years ago, and it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through. You will be in my thoughts in the coming days, weeks, and months.

Sandy said...

Losing a parent, especially one who you love so much is about as hard as anything can be.. especially when you endured an illness with them.. Keep the happy memories in your heart and his voice will come back to you day after day...
My moms life ended rather suddenly, we were just not aware of a problem and she lived with me at the time.. it's 12 years now and I am always going back to the what if's.. why did I not know how ill she was? I never had the chance to say good bye..... to this day her voice is in my heart... we laugh together and cry together. She never left me and you will find this in time.. Your dad has not left you either... When you find the time, read my post, Remembering Mom.. it tells of the Eggplant.
http://thewondersofdoing.blogspot.com/2011/05/remembering-mom.html

Keep your eye out for a sign from your dad in the next few weeks.. I truly believe this now.
Sending good vibes to you and your family.. remember to take very good care of yourself.
((huggss))
Sandy

Tys said...

I'm so very sorry to hear of your loss. Our baby Grant just passed away a month ago... you'd think I'd have profound things to tell you or advice. I don't. Not one thing. Do what you need to do, grieve how you need to grieve, and some how you'll make it through. Big hugs to you and your family.

liz @ bon temps beignet said...

I don't know what it's like to lose a parent, but I can only imagine how devestated you must be. You will most definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. Hope your family can have a little peace in this sad time.

Megan said...

Oh my, I am so sorry. I lost my brother recently after only 6 months of cancer fighting and I feel your pain. It's horrible. It's a horrible disease and it hurts the lives of everyone, not just the person who gets it. You have to be strong, to try to find some joy in every day activities, to talk to your family about your feelings, and remember the good times and not the bad. It's hard to focus on the last few months but you need to remmeber the good times more. It's hard, but you need to. Good luck and take care.

Kerry said...

Oh lady - I'm so sorry to hear this! :( My heart is breaking for you and I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through.

Words fail me at a time like this, as I know nothing I say could possibly make you feel better or fill that void. But I do want to let you know that I'm thinking of you and family during this hard time!

xo

Rachel said...

Oh my gosh! I am so, so sorry for your loss! I have been thinking about you and hoping everything was going alright! I will keep you and your family in my prayers! *HUG*

Jill said...

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I know words are little comfort just now, but my thoughts are with you. xx

Devonay said...

I am so sorry. Your loss is immense and painful. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lisa said...

I am so, so sorry. Sending condolences to you and your family.

Erin said...

Oh hon, I am so sorry to read this. I will say a prayer for you this morning. My deepest condolences.

Chance @ Designed by Chance said...

Oh Sweetie, I'm so sorry for your loss. This must be a very hard time for you. Just know I'm here if you need anything. This month marks the one year anniversary of my father's death and although I still miss him I feel that I can breathe a little easier. Hope that helps. You're in my thoughts.

Donene said...

I am so sorry for your loss and the difficulties of losing your father. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Thanks for visiting and your nice comments.

Nita {ModVintageLife} said...

I am way behind on blog reading and just now read that your father died. I am so sorry for your loss. I'm going through a lot of really bad stuff too if it makes you feel any better to know others are miserable too. I lost my Grandmother to pancreatic cancer 14 years ago. I know how terrible it is. Now my best friend is dying of breast cancer which has moved to her lungs and bones. She is going through chemo again...but its very touch and go.

So sorry you went through this and lost your father...I lost mine in an accident 9 years ago and I still miss him terribly.

Paula said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something that I could say to make it better, but having gone through this myself with my own father and brother, I know that there isn't anything that I can say except that I truly am sorry and that I am thinking about you.

Angie@Echoes of Laughter said...

I am so sorry to read this news. Please accept my deepest sympathies on the death of your dad. My Grandfather passed away from pancreatic cancer 22 years ago and I still feel the pain. Please know I am thinking of you throughout this difficult time. Angie xo

seldom said...

Feeling for you but knowing that there is nothing I can say except go with the pain and the anger. Just feel. That disease is such a b*tch. My Dad died of it over Christmas. Hate.It.