it's only there trying to fool the public.
A few of you have been asking about my dad...so here's where we are.
I've been feeling sad lately. The rain hasn't been helping, either. I went to the store to pick up some birthday cards and father's day cards. This was the first time i cried in the dollar store. What sort of father's day card is sufficient to tell my dad how much i love him and that i'm scared? I'm scared. What if we don't have any more father's days together? My co worker's mother just passed away, and i found this perfectly worded, most sincere card for her. Do you know there were many more sympathy cards to choose from for mothers and only one card for fathers? Why is that?
My father was supposed to start his third cycle of chemo. Each cycle is 3 weeks on, 1 week off. This was his first "on" since returning from vacation. He lost 11 pounds since the last time they saw him, 3 weeks ago. The latest scans show the cancer on the pancreas has not gotten any smaller, and the cancer on the liver have gotten larger. This is not liver cancer, most liver cancer is not actually liver cancer, but like this it migrates there from somewhere else. This is pancreatic cancer in the liver. 1 in 8 men have pancreatic cancer, and there are few treatments. The doctors feel this chemo isn't working since the liver masses have gotten larger, and we will be reconvening with them today. Hopefully he will get today's dose, for i don't know what it means if he doesn't. I have a list of questions and hopefully there are other options to explore.
I am not a praying person, but many of you are. I am a wisher, a pleader, a hoper, even a beggar. If you could pray or wish or plead or hope for us today, I'm sure we'd feel your supportive vibes.